Its crazy how when we are going through something how looooong it can seem, but then when its all over, you look back and wonder where the time ran off too. It feels like only yesterday when I was arriving on Southerns campus alone…I was nervous, and pretty scared because this was the biggest leap of faith I ever took. I left my falling apart home and came up to southern where God led me and worked so many miracles. He put people on my path that helped support me and guide me, which I am so thankful for each of them. He put me through trial to work on my character…and it hurt. However, God knew what he was doing and I’m thankful for it. Now I’m graduated and blessed with a job and I’m just left speechless because it’s all too good. God is just too good. He blesses and forgives us when we don’t deserve it. God truly uses people in their impossible circumstances and background. I use to read the story about the Israelites and thought how could they be so dumb? God is rescuing them and they still choose to do evil! Yet, I was rescued from where God brought me and STILL I made mistakes and STILL chose wrong, and I learned such a valuable lesson. Our relationship with God has to be fought for, it can be great one day but Satan is always prowling around seeking who he may devour and if this is true, I need to be in constant communion with my God or I’ll revert back to my foolish ways like we all do. Yet even in my foolishness, God continued to lead and bless me. This of course wasn’t without discipline and heartache, but the fact that God still chooses to use you after you forget him or get too busy for Him just shows how wonderful He truly is. So, as I look back and reflect my journey I see a God who can do anything, no matter how smart, how much money, family background, whether you are timid or bold, God can use you and has a plan. Leave it in His hands <3
I Want to do Bad Things | NEW POST
For most of my adult life, I’ve felt like I am split into two different halves; a man with two faces, if you will.
One part of me is the side that cares for others and aches to help any and all with whatever plagues them. This is the side that writes…
It’s crazy how we can get to these points in our lives where we choose to be better, and tell ourselves and God that we will NOT revert back to what we were. In that very instant we trip over the very words that came out of our mouths and are humbled by our own wrong doings. Why does God love us? If in the very moment we are committing a sin, we have a conscious telling us its wrong, and scripture in our heads confirming that we shouldn’t YET we do it anyways. We sin intentionally many times and yet God still loves us.
I can’t count how many times I feel inspired and feel on fire and just “good” because perhaps I had improved a character defect or did something good and in my eyes felt worthy of Gods love. Yet it wasn’t in those times that I felt how amazing He was. It was in my most shameful moments where I felt God reaching out to me and telling me He loves me and I said why? Why do you love me, I have sinned against you so many times KNOWING what I was doing wasn’t your will. Yet, He loves me, and my good deeds or obeying His law or having a closer relationship isn’t going to make Him love me more. Its crazy to think that, because that not how us humans work. People love us more when something is benefiting them.
Its so easy to think and compare ourselves to others and think since we aren’t doing things that are “as bad” as someone else’s sin that we are okay? EGW says it best but we fail to notice the many things we aren’t doing. Just because I abstain from many things doesn’t mean that I’m suddenly “good”, perhaps if we all looked at the things we didn’t do we would see that we have a lot to work on, but even in that God still wants and uses us. When you finally realize your position and how NOT good you are, and realize that God still loved you in your foolishness…you get a sense of amazement that you can’t fully comprehend. Fact: God loves you, and He wants to use you.
“Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.”
This verse doesn’t say that under certain circumstance and situations that this doesn’t abide, but in everything. That may not always be easy to do, but God gives us the strength. God is love and in order to obtain the attributes in this text, we have to constantly walk with Him.
God gives, sin takes away
After watching a lady bend over crying in deep pain after a bad diagnosis from a doctor of a loved one, I couldn’t help but wanna cry with her. For a second I began to put myself in her shoes and pictured someone in my family being in that position and my heart ached for her. This world is such a sad place, so many terrible things happen everyday. People carry burdens heavier than I could imagine, but they don’t have to!
Us christians have a message to tell the world, one that brings peace into peoples hearts. One that will revive people who are suffering and restore health of mind and body..People need this..
This world is a terrible place, but we can have a peace and joy like none other.